Saturday, July 12, 2008
i never used to feel lonely. i never used to cry over such stuff. back then, things were different. i didn't care about those things.
anyway, i went wild wild wet today and the staff there are actually quite friendly. no wonder they had some excellent service award thing i saw. and eugene thought i looked a little haggard today when i passed him some stuff. i thought so too when i look into the mirror in the toilet at wild wild wet. youth is wasting by. sigh. and recently it's been kind of crazy and i banged my head today. urgh. maybe i killed some freaking brain cells.
so we're young only once and i think we should live our lives as how we want it to be and not look back and regret that your youth was wasted away like that? okay i don't know what i'm talking about. it must be because i banged my head. but i just think that timing is an important factor in certain things. timing is what made me fail in my first time. now it's kind of failing me again? is it? i don't know. but it feels like it. i feel like i'm supposed to just leave this block of time out and go back to it another time? and now wow i sound like i'm doing some magic over here. okay i don't think anyone gets what i'm saying so whatever.
i just passed this library book to douya it's called When It Happens. it reminds me so much of what i've been through like i can relate. so this is what i've been doing - reading. i'm not saying it's a bad thing because i kind of like it but it also reminds me of the days i used to want to just hide myself up at home and just take myself away into a fictional character's world?
okay so reading it shall be. maybe it'll be my activity for the next i don't know how long.
but for now i'm kind of irked that i have orientation on the 22nd aug and cherie's flying off on the 22nd morning too! what is this seriously. and my letter says attendence is compulsory?! honestly i haven't come to terms with the fact that cherie will be away for years minus the times she'll be back. i'll have one less true friend around to cry to when i'm down, to talk to when i feel random, to go out and have fun with, to eat all the rubbish things i want to eat with, to tell me something lame but i laugh anyway because her face is retarded, to self-high with, to giggle silly with while smelling another table's shisha, to make fun of me, to understand me when sometimes the things i say don't make sense, to always make me feel better by trying very hard to cheer me up etc. it's endless.
hey beautiful
love you like a sister;
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